Perhaps its a little unfair to blame all my current malaise on my my job, but making a move toward getting out of there seems to have lifted my spirits somewhat. The question becomes one of what happens next? I’m reasonably sure that my long term future doesn’t see me staying in the Cambridge area, this is not something I can really explain, except to say that I don’t really feel like I fit in. Short term, though, its not a bad place to be.
Something I do want is to do more travelling, and I don’t want to get stuck in a job where the paperwork is the biggest part of the job rather than the actual work I’m supposed to be doing. Going to conferences or customer sites would be interesting, but how do I find a job where I get to do those things? That would imply a permanent job rather than contract, but then its difficult to find somewhere where you aren’t bogged down in the mire of buearocracy.
Also feeding into this lassitude is my social situation – I’ve been somewhat slow at reintegrating into British culture after returning from Japan. This, maybe, is related to the feelings about Cambridge, which causes which I don’t know. Maybe thats something I need to sort out, but I suspect that fixing the job situation will make most of the rest of it fall into place one way or another.
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