Neil Hopcroft

A digital misfit

But I don’t know what happens now


(Post made for my records, left open for others to read on the offchance things are more serious than I believe)

Breathe…. breathe…. breathe…. “so this is what it feels like when its all over”… breathe… breathe… breathe…

And so I woke. My body tingling, pins and needles all over. Jumping around, trying to ward off the reaper. Shaking.

You don’t think straight when that happens, wrenched from slumber unexpectedly. That was two hours ago, so I’m guessing any immediate danger has gone now. I’m still somewhat wary of the idea of sleeping again, because, despite it all, I don’t want to let go yet.

I’m hoping this was just a panic attack of some kind brought on by too many peppers or project meetings.

I need a change of context.


Categories: Memories.

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8 comments

  1. mr_flay

    Was it sleep paralysis? It sounds like it. I’ve had that a few times, it is bloody terrifying at first; I don’t think you need to worry, though. :)

    FWIW, I first suffered it just after completing a really stressful play, so I think it can be brought on by stress and awfulness. A break of context probably would do you a world of good.

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    • neilh

      I think it would be fair to say I’m going through something of a stressful time at the moment, so thats probably the cause. Scary, in a kind of ‘dont know whats going on’ sort of way, rather than actually feeling bad. Confusing.

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    • neilh

      That would be an exceptionally good name for it, yes. Though I’m not sure its quite right for the technical description. Seems non-dangerous, in that I’m now feeling fine except for being somewhat tired having gotten up and taken a bath in the middle of the night.

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  4. sciamachy

    Sounds like me around Christmas when my lungs were all infected and I kept passing out from lack of oxygen. It’s horrible when you can’t breathe properly.

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